Feeling Like Jello

I once ate Jello with chopsticks at the MTC. It’s not the hardest thing to do if you slightly break up the blocks so that there is something there for the chopstick to hold to.

My life feels like Jello. I think that I am falling behind in my classes although they seem to be all that I ever do. And even as I write that, I know that I spent more time watching TV this semester than I ever have before, and also a lot of time looking through job ads. God said that I needed to keep up with school, but He never mentioned how I would get through my  bills and that’s caused me to be a nervous wreck for a few months.

Although actually less stressful somehow, I just moved this weekend to another location in the city, pretty far away from the things that most people act like are important but closer to companies, businesses, and actually closer to one school. The amenities are resoundingly better than my last apartment, and although the commute to one school is much longer than it used to be, I get to deal with that next semester.

Today I am supposed to register for classes at the closer school and I have no idea what to attempt to get into. I want to do markup language coding and learn more languages so that I can mark up the way that I want to mark up and do things that help my projects progress and be happy. Personal happiness is a luxury now, not a right. It’s that elusive thing that living commandments is supposed to get you, and sometimes it just takes an attitude adjustment to get toward.

Nothing in my life is simple. I wish that it was, but instead, I feel like I am walking on Jello. God walked on squishier stuff, but I am starting to wonder if my current state of being is simply an attribute like a mark up language. I have some stability, but at the same time everything else flows around me and ignores me. Goes right past me and maybe that is a good thing.

All that I can see is that I have to hold on and do what God’s already told me to do. To live the commandments, I’ve turned down some really hard temptations, and when others would not listen to Deity, have been pushed aside akin to Miyagi’s wax on-wax off method. Whatever the method or reasons, I’m here now and am trying to figure out what to do with this lifetime.

Afterlife is easy: help with the gospel, do the right thing, keep on going. Done. Just work hard, and do as well as possible. Seems simple enough. All that I see for this life now is finishing school, making family history apps, working on the genealogy business, and otherwise paying bills. I wish that I could have a family, but that is dependent on other’s agency of which I do not have control and would not ask for that control to be had by me. Without someone else’s choices, my progression is limited in this life. It seems harsh, but it isn’t. Not everyone has the chance to marry. I think/thought that I will have that chance, especially as I am still fairly young. I’m young, but I have the weight of kingdoms on my shoulders and they hurt a little. I’d give my life for a good, honest, temple-worthy guy to help share the load and for me to share his load.

No matter what, I must keep going. There is no vice without a price, and in this case, I have avoided much and hope to be able to endure a lot more. God has said often that He expects a lot of me, and I don’t really know exactly what that is or how to get it done. How long did it take the Brother of Jared to figure out that God touching small stones could make light for the barges when crossing oceans? I mean, that’s REALLY creative stuff. I’m not honestly that good. I have an app. One app, and it could easily change the world. I feel like I am behind in everything that I do, but maybe I’m stuck in the DNA-style loop that seems to befit the fullness of times.

I don’t know what God wants me to do now outside of unpacking. Do homework, look for and apply to everything under the sun including scholarships, and become exhausted on a regular basis. Trying  not to drown.

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Family History Basics: Part Two (Internet Sources for Kicks and Giggles)

This is a continued series following a request for information on getting started with genealogical research, without using Ancestry. The author has nothing against using Ancestry, but wants to show that there are alternatives as the request stated.

Internet Resources: More Sites

Internet genealogical sources are myriad and scattered across the upper levels of the World Wide Web. There are plenty of deep-level web sites for individual family sources, and things that are kept behind paid or unpaid firewalls for accessibility restrictions due to membership (read: profit) concerns.

Ancestry is the biggest gorilla on the block, but there are also sites like WorldVitalRecords.com, HeritageQuest.com, and Fold3 that do similar functions. Their resources may overlap in a few places, but that depends upon the business model, profit-sharing strategies, and strategic planning.

This is by no means a thorough list, but a small compilation of a few of my go-to resources when at a library. I use Ancestry due to its profundity, but will need to start a Fold3 account soon after reviewing its source possibilities for military records. For someone living in the Windy City, the public libraries are under-staffed due to extreme and severe budget cuts. When you cut a library, you’re cutting your life. That said, there is at least HeritageQuest that is accessible for home use via one of those precious little green library cards. Since HeritageQuest has the censuses (the biggest draw for any US-based online genealogical database image-viewing site) I recommend using that green card and reaping happy benefits.

Client Practice Methodology for the Inclined: Time Needed for Starting Out

Future blog posts will highlight or give more depth to these and other sites in addition to other facets of research. There are myriad ways of starting out, and I typically recommend reserving an hour for beginning and two hours if you want to dig just a bit. The time goes by FAST! Just trust me here. I’ve given enough people a small taste to know that time becomes irrelevant outside of the cost structure. That said, four-hour increments are what I normally see people charge for when performing research for another person. It’s long enough to get some basics together, although not so long that it’s onerous on a client or their pocketbook, typically. For friends, I suggest two hours for simply helping them out in getting started, but will start with one hour and see whether they have more time than that. Once a person starts and gets into it, stopping is close to or nearly impossible.